19 Feb 2015

Yellow Light

We are almost reaching the half-of-sem mark.
In all honesty
I have no idea how I made it thus far.
The days, unlike last sem
passed like a blur.
I know exactly what I am doing everyday,
but I have no idea what I was doing this time, last week.

I hang out less
(I miss writing)
I have more alone time
Which is good in a way, I concentrate better on my work and spend less time on distractions
But somehow it resulted in an emptiness created within me

I feel like a thread
weaved through throngs of fabric
but still feeling hollow in the middle

Though the cold won't send shivers down my spine
Though the tension won't lead me to snap
I still feel like something is missing.

Maybe all I need is a needle to guide me through.

And what type of needle would that be?

I’m looking for a place to start
but everything feels so different now.
Just grab a hold of my hand,
I will lead you through this wonderland.
Water up to my knees
but sharks are swimming in the sea.
Just follow my yellow light
and ignore all those big warning signs.

Somewhere deep in the dark
a howling beast hears us talk.
I dare you to close your eyes
and see all the colors in disguise.
Running into the night,
the earth is shaking and I see a light.
The light is blinding my eyes
as the soft walls eat us alive.